Friday, July 29, 2016

On EPITAPHS AND DREAMS

A friend once said that poetry has that sacred ability to get to the most elemental truths without beating around some bushes, and I agreed fully. And having recently being introduced to the works of Patrick Fitzgerald, the statement holds indispensible truth more so as the anthology is an adept chronicle of very insurgent times in the not so distant history of the struggle for South Africa’s liberation. These renegade spills of soul matter; I still glance at the anthology to find a turbulent study of the aims of the struggle, where life was no series of terminations but renewals of strength in the face of villainous adversity.
A struggle veteran and liberation cadre himself, Patrick’s poetic simplicity seems to be an appropriate edifice that elicits the author’s personal memories of those harsh times spent in exile. Told from a vantage point not clouded by the smoke and bullets, nor nostalgia but a far reaching optimism about what is yet to be, his words stand as testament of the necessity of record for the overall human experience of a time. Words validating the realness of events, words that are from the beholder’s heart, while knowingly inclusive of the company of others.
 In a solitary way, he seems to have been gathering elements for a uniquely personal philosophy about the objectives of the struggle and these poems attest to a quest achieved. The section of the work aptly titled NECESSARY STRUGGLE stands as further proof that the animating power of words can bring times lost to the fore, laying claim to unique authenticity of recollection and uncensored emotions bred in reclusive contemplation.
And knowing how the past can be a volatile terrain to navigate; only miserly and skilled recollection can in fact dredge out the uncensored. In LOVE AND BLUES, forlorn memories are retold with such clarity and simplicity of language as though he was speaking in codes, and this is what captivates the mind about the man’s writing. His stories are not recitations of acts of valor or bravery, but those of perpetual failings and unabated hopes wrought in the paranoid chill of lonesomeness, clumsily versed without verbosity and boisterous words. Without enmity towards his fondest memories of love and losses, some poems are engaged in no ephemeral moments or events nor ravings about ‘interrupted sunsets’.
Entwined with a lacuna of voices from an era of turmoil, here wails another galvanizing our collective memory, the book appearing to represent phases in a life well-lived, yet invoking scars attained during those musical moments and bloodcurdling events, and when loneliness was in itself an event.


EPITAPHS AND DREAMS
Poems to remember the struggle 
By Patrick Fitzgerald
Porcupine Press info@porcupinepress.co.za

Thursday, July 7, 2016

A Junk Yard Diary

Fofa is a snuff snorting vagrant, patron saint of scavengers and madmen of Kokosi.
Skin tattooed in prison rites and rash scars that never heal, his bachelor brain couldn’t comprehend a union with the opposite sex.
Every neighborhood has its population of mad-people, some said to be bewitched, whose shadows have been stolen by sorcery, others whose minds have been deranged by chronic sicknesses yet living with infected positives.
Fofa was one such poisoned glow in virtual darkness of this group of derelict and excommunicated vagabonds, walking corroded streets in blazing daylight with high steps of warriors who face unseen assailants.
These people often build communities, slimy shelters erected in junk yards or shrubby bush patches, well-resourced as per their needs, with families sprouting among the broken remains of human discards.
Dishwasher boxes and industrial Styrofoam make for materials of Fofa ramshackle abode, roofed with thick, opaque red and green tinted plastic sheets.
Furnished scantily with a tattered queen size mattress or the remains there of, a paraffin stove and box that serves as a table, during the day the dazzling play of green and red light make his shelter almost comforting.
It is one among at least nine in this stinking heap of manure, this place is precariously located between the town where white people reside and the township where the blacks are incarcerated.
Ditoting is a buffer zone that is more symbolic than colored areas situated to separate the two spheres of animosity from dangerous proximity and confrontation.
Here we find mainly women toiling from dawn, huddling throwaway toys and dresses, others keeping their minds away from the flies and maggots by imagining rewards of recycled products of utility and excess.
Men, the battering force that carries the bundles of card-boxes and sacks full of broken glass to recycling plants that pay starvation rations that keep the family at the dump happy for a day, often return torn and inebriated, facing children too young to dream of fresh loaves of bread.
Fofa lives among these ruined lives, happy in their merry gathering around bond fires made of wood gathered from broken wardrobes, closets full of secrets to success.
Once treasured objects would lie crushed among fodder that will fan the flames warming these faces, dream objects reminding them also, of deranged paths they had once glimpsed and lost, but still yearn for in the deepest of their sickly club.
He made his home among charred bits of stewed rubbish and rotting entrails of dead pets, discarded ornaments, among lost persons wishing never to be found, himself a fugitive from himself, after a fifteen year stint in prison.
But he had returned, living, when many return dead of heart or of body and soul.
He was also not mad, not the common place madness of dirty clothes and unkempt persons trailing caked and oily blankets while reciting monologues to their invisible company of floating ears.
He was mad, yes, but in an enticing frolic of a jester intoxicated by some inexplicably juicy joke only he heard and understood; for he wore a smiting smile that often turned to a sour grimace that meant to remind inmates of their station.
Yes, he often mistreated some scavengers on this field of forsaken treasures and skeletons because he seems to have been a self-appointed supervisor by merit of his prison creed.
A sharp tongue characterized this fellow and whomever he deemed impetuous would be ostracized by this tight commune of fools and misers.
Malice was formulaic of most of their sly dealings and with Fofa as the oracle tax collector; he had many privileges which go beyond any dignity preserved for even married men and women.
He never went to his mattress hungry or without a warm sumptuous body to warm his frozen person enraged during errands in his field or among ‘normal’ residents of Kokosi.
But he was a formidable storyteller, a jester who could reclaim mirth onto the face of a sphinx.
This man was also here by choice and will, not as aftermath of devastating poverty or need for shelter, but a lust for money and a certain degree of looting the last preserves of those deemed sociable.
He could talk coins out of any pocket, cigarettes out of fingers’ frozen clutches at winter stakeouts, he could sip any bottle dry and empty brimming trolleys with a steamy loaf of bread left for his zealous efforts.
Everyone knows Fofa and his amiable demeanor has conquered numerous fans into his rostrum of cheering voices, an ardent garden attendant and car- washer, the buzz of any tavern and early dawn ancestral ceremonies.
He had a conspiratorially valid reason for residing it this junk yard – early birds do catch fattest worms of course, and in his case, being first to scale through a garbage truck on its arrival after night shifts was like being first to find treasure at the end of a rainbow.
And he was correct in his assumptions about voluminous benefits of his feat, because he also collected an extensively elaborate library of encyclopedia and erotic novels cast away by teens that outgrew adolescent crushes and muscle bound caresses.
History books about unknown worlds and vanished ones, maps, atlases, magazines and other contraptions of nostalgia now lying dead among slain excesses, would be found scattered on his queen size mattress, bibles in a variety of languages strewn across a paint streaked canvas covering his dirt cold floor.
And still on the subject of history, this junk heap is said to be situated right above the ruins of the ancestral village of this present sterile Kokosi, and it was cordially named Makweteng.
Orators of old depict a communal place of mud huts and corrugated steel shacks built by servants and farm workers during heydays of the infamous gold rush whose fever gripped this area like a pandemic.
 With unspoken brutalities witnessed by residents of these areas since time immemorial, a weird aura seeps from every rock lingering in our presence at this oppressively grave garbage field.
But above this village which was uncompromisingly decimated by powers that be during some expansion of Fochville in some late 1950’s, now stood a hunting ground for fenders and fidgeting hoarders, and in the midst of this vortex was Fofa’s life drumming forth after years of reeking cells and brutal farms.
One would wonder how many graves of bloodlines that make up this township lie under a heap of garbage and putrid landmass, because even today, people speak of ghostly sightings near and around this rotting compound, where Fofa arduously was making a living home.
Only those brave enough to face the dead were welcome into this reclusive community, and many had come and gone taunted by spirits and self-inflicted paranoia, but for those who remained a bond of brotherhood developed and no shame was ever worn on faces of these haunted people.
But it must also be said that his shelter was the biggest in the junk yard, a bookshelf housing various books, two china plates and a glassful of spoons.
Some leftover sachets of salt and other spices piled in an ice cream container, a steel kettle and dish on a three-legged table balanced with bricks, all these appliances and clutter was arranged in a clinically precise manner.
When I first encountered Fofa, these were luxuries that he boasted about among his peers around the township when on hunting prowls for loose women.
I didn’t completely believe he lived at the junk yard when we were first introduced at one of those obvious incidents of traditional gatherings with bottomless fermented ginger barrels.
But today, pigeons tossing carcasses and clawing meals from bones while cooing incessantly, rats scurrying about in hide and seek jostles; I realize that his sibilant hymn accompanied by crackling coals of dying fires is actually music each dawn for Fofa, as he had begun to name his school of master-less fliers barorisi ba morena.
A chorus of hums and groans croaked through beaks unloosening strings tangled around claws, heaving chest sacks and gnawing through bone until blood trickles.
Here, even birds have tasted blood, their own flesh cannibalized during feats with knotted wool dangling like razor sharp ankle bracelets.
Some which eventually mutilate their own troubled toes would be seen limping about wings wrestling rags and garbage while their toil, similar to that of women and children here, goes unabated even under the blazing heat of December days.
Three whirlwinds crawled over a garbage heap sending plastic shreds dancing raucously like unanchored kites above sober heads, and it was at this hour of rapid toil that a truck full of gardeners and recyclers rode into the yard to the welcoming whistles of those awaiting its deposits.
And I was among them, among damp putty in black bags, broken twigs and garbage bags seeping their brew through grimy holes torn by soot and slime of other nutritional and industrial refuses.
Acrobatics were exhibited by those who found these rides rejuvenating, children chased after dust plumes discarded by wheels of this worn truck looking rackety and about to collapse with everyone holding for dear life and breath.
Then we saw Fofa as the truck reclined approaching the garbage load, commander of this army of rodents and persons without shame; running, rummaging and chiding those who dared scale through the rubble before his initiating turn.
The day goes down eventfully as always, with minor hushes and boisterous laughter at senile jokes about anything found in the rubble, soiled panties, torn bra straps, make up accessories and food packets, needles and condoms.
Here, poverty is a choice for the hygienic, because food stuffs, sealed cans of preserved assortments of nourishment, bottled water thought to have rotted perhaps and a load of toys and scrapped coloring books could be salvaged from this mound of wrecks and discarded fulfillments.
Pule, an all time madman of this soppy township always visits the junk yard at intervals that are interspersed between his long walks through townships streets muttering secrets to himself, and now he was huddled over a browned broken cake mixed with burnt tyre remnants.
After inspecting the cuisine delicately with his black nailed fingers, we see him munch on through our distracted chatter about where to unload our toxic cargo.
Another truck unloads hot ashes from a steel container, with chains rattling and the engine moaning for dear death after a life of carrying homes, belongings, coffins, foodstuff and broken trees.
Fafo shows one morose elderly driver a spot and directs the truck’s reversal with seasoned and masterly antics, his zealous moves, waving arms and dangling hands signaling a halt, that soon the truck tips over its rear and another heap grows upon a old ghost town underneath – Makweteng.
Earth, who tends to conquer everything with her gravely grip, makes mud of most things, but others resiliently survive any microbial assault and in turn launch their own death on the self-same earth.
Junk yards are epitomes of dead earth, scars of breathless soil, yet they also have their own pulse born of radioactive debris and bubbling acid foaming in pools among wood carvings and kitsch paintings.
Fafo seems disinterested in this mess of blistering slime and advices any handler to put their tattered gloves on; but most don’t have such luxuries of protective garments for fingers which need be nimble around elusive treasures.
And he stands on a tin drum hailing passing women and children, quarreling with the driver of the useless mash that kills even dogs but still jesting about crippled children soon to be born from loins burned by invisible heats of the Losberg Junk Yard.
***
There is one thing about people who have been incarcerated that sticks out like a sore thumb; they have an insatiable appetite for dominance, and this translates into a venomous strictness that borders on mania.
For a person who chose his place of residence so accordingly, it could surprise some that he was as clean a house slave, meticulous about detail and tidiness of his orderly disorder.
He wanted nothing moved without his knowledge; he wanted things done at only his command.
A bully and a jester who could make you do the most debasing stunt in front of all your peers, while reciting a narration that calls for the tragedy to always wear a cloak of humor.
But somehow since our meeting, his mean streak never flounders my way; yet I can tell that his comrades in these piles of dung are a bit intimidated by him, and his prison tattoos and exclamatory voice.
A Big 5 stalwart who traversed many a numbers in prison, scars and death threats, friends maimed in dirty bathrooms and salesmen blossoming among womanized men.
His story is one among many, but what he recalls of his last seven days in prison is conversation at campfires and prison raids, when one is left in solitary confinement, such heroics make silence a friendly listener.
Yet beneath this veil of stoical demeanor was a very contemplate being, who could wonder the junk yard under a bright moon, star dust and rigid figures towering in the cover of a stream of light in a shadow.
He could sense tinges of laughter welling from within at some sinister encounter, a jester who always thought to see the lighter side of life’s misery.
Nevertheless, the tale of those ‘last days’ is something that I found to the most profound parable of a man who has just found freedom for the first time in 15 years.